Dear little being so precious and tiny.
You are the second life I have carried and have surrendered my body to as a home.
I am, in my heart honored, but there has come some struggle with this journey.
You have made me so tired, yet so sleepless.
For months, I have felt as though I am wandering through the woods,
uncertain of where I am,
yet trusting the path will become clearer,
that it will come to an end.
And there, it will all make perfect sense and it will all have been so absolutely worthwhile.
You are mysterious yet so distinct.
There have been times when I have felt so alone in this, and you let me know you are there,
that we are in this together. That despite my, at times, seeming wavering disconnection
from myself, that I am your mother, that you need me and
as I have many times before, will find myself again.
The ability you have to teach me, unfolds and reveals itself daily.
I become more open to your lessons, more grateful for your power. You have reminded me of the value of patience and the potency of love. To soften to time, to loosen the grasp, to let go.
To be present, the best I can. No matter what.
To cherish life, to embrace challenge, to nurture vulnerability.
To love. No matter what.
It is said that our truth is revealed by touching the core of our heart,
and the vibration is felt and shared collectively in it’s recognition. I find it beautiful that you have been there with me during this time of going deep into this place of center,
that you have taken me there and shown me the way, that eternally,
this current of truth is ours to share.
Your sister is a bright and vivacious being.
She has awakened and enriched this process of walking with you by her interest in the ever growing expansion of my belly and your eventual arrival. I am giddy to think how it will be, when you two meet and I will have the privilege as a witness to the exchange of two super novas, shining so brightly upon one another.
How amazing, that in a few months, space will be occupied by your fierce yet gentle presence,
in this home that awaits you, no longer inside of my own skin. All the lessons you will teach us, all the moments you will make more sweet, all the laughter you will bring as you continue to live as my daughter, my darling teacher, my precious truth.